[Jack lets out an only-slightly nervous chuckle. He hadn't expected Ianto to react with disgust the way a lot of people would have, even in their line work--Charles Gaskell comes to mind--but he'd still expected a little more open confusion.]
Yeah, well, Torchwood might have had advanced tech and science for the time when I joined up but they still wouldn't have known what to look for. Especially since I got the really important equipment for that particular process removed a couple years later. Time Agency was pretty lax about a lot of things, which is why they let people like me and Hart graduate, but they were pretty strict on making sure agents didn't wind up becoming their own great-great-great grandfather or something, so sterilization's a requirement for graduation.
[He tries not to focus too much on the pressure of Ianto's fingers, instead tipping his head a little into the warm breath rushing over his temple and cheek.]
They're half the reason it didn't come to anything. I'd only just figured out why I was feeling off for a couple weeks after talking to one of my girlfriends, who thankfully was nice enough to keep her mouth shut about it, when I got the offer to go to the Time Academy. I was already…[he sighs, trying to figure out the best way to explain the tangled thoughts and feelings of that screwed up boy, somehow even more screwed up than the man he'd eventually become in some ways.]
I did spend a couple weeks thinking about it. Didn't have a damn clue who the other genetic contributor was, but I could've found out if I wanted to, maybe asked if they'd pitch in. Started coming up with some harebrained ideas of how I'd make it work, knew it'd be rough but at least I'd have a family again, right? [he shakes his head, laughing a little.] Teenagers really don't change, they just get more ways to do reckless, stupid shite.
[He swallows, flexing his fingers against Ianto's.] But everyone was so proud when I got that offer, since I was the first one on the whole Peninsula the Agency recruited. And I told myself that hey, whenever I'm done with 'em, I can always get the whole process reversed. Might've, if I'd left through official channels instead of just stealing a ship when no one was looking. Still might, when I get to the century when they've got the process refined again. Dunno. Little far off to really think about it much. Hadn't thought about…the whole thing, much in a long time but something John mentioned about that guy, Simon--something he went through, I guess, 'long with all that 'getting kicked back to before I finished puberty' business got it all dredged up again, I guess.
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Date: 2023-11-26 10:41 pm (UTC)Yeah, well, Torchwood might have had advanced tech and science for the time when I joined up but they still wouldn't have known what to look for. Especially since I got the really important equipment for that particular process removed a couple years later. Time Agency was pretty lax about a lot of things, which is why they let people like me and Hart graduate, but they were pretty strict on making sure agents didn't wind up becoming their own great-great-great grandfather or something, so sterilization's a requirement for graduation.
[He tries not to focus too much on the pressure of Ianto's fingers, instead tipping his head a little into the warm breath rushing over his temple and cheek.]
They're half the reason it didn't come to anything. I'd only just figured out why I was feeling off for a couple weeks after talking to one of my girlfriends, who thankfully was nice enough to keep her mouth shut about it, when I got the offer to go to the Time Academy. I was already…[he sighs, trying to figure out the best way to explain the tangled thoughts and feelings of that screwed up boy, somehow even more screwed up than the man he'd eventually become in some ways.]
I did spend a couple weeks thinking about it. Didn't have a damn clue who the other genetic contributor was, but I could've found out if I wanted to, maybe asked if they'd pitch in. Started coming up with some harebrained ideas of how I'd make it work, knew it'd be rough but at least I'd have a family again, right? [he shakes his head, laughing a little.] Teenagers really don't change, they just get more ways to do reckless, stupid shite.
[He swallows, flexing his fingers against Ianto's.] But everyone was so proud when I got that offer, since I was the first one on the whole Peninsula the Agency recruited. And I told myself that hey, whenever I'm done with 'em, I can always get the whole process reversed. Might've, if I'd left through official channels instead of just stealing a ship when no one was looking. Still might, when I get to the century when they've got the process refined again. Dunno. Little far off to really think about it much. Hadn't thought about…the whole thing, much in a long time but something John mentioned about that guy, Simon--something he went through, I guess, 'long with all that 'getting kicked back to before I finished puberty' business got it all dredged up again, I guess.